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sarasvatiI'm certain I had something poignant to say today, but since I now can't remember it, I'll just answer 100 questions in a meme instead.
1. ONE OF YOUR SCARS, HOW DID YOU GET IT?
When I was 12 I had a very nasty case of chicken pox that ended up scarring badly. As a result there are small round scars dotted here and there over my body, most of them still raised. The largest of them is on my chest, and the only reason it's smaller now is because it was deemed large enough in the beginning to receive steroid injections to shrink it.
2. WHAT IS ON THE WALLS IN YOUR ROOM?
Wallpaper that's half torn down and desperately needs the job finished. There are a few pictures around the apartment, but we never did get around to putting up posters or paintings.
3. DO YOU SNORE, GRIND YOUR TEETH, OR TALK IN YOUR SLEEP?
I snore, and usually quite badly. I usually only talk or cry out in my sleep when I'm having nightmares.
4. WHAT TYPE OF MUSIC DO YOU LISTEN TO?
It varies, and usually I prefer bands to specific genres. My playlist has everything from the Cruxshadows (gothrock) to Mediaeval Baebes (madrigals and other old-style songs) to Gackt (Gackt is a genre all on his own :p). I tend not to like country or rap, though.
5. WHAT TIME WERE YOU BORN?
Not completely sure, but I know it was some time in the middle of the night, around 2 AM or so.
6. WHAT DO YOU WANT MORE THAN ANYTHING RIGHT NOW?
To be unafraid of speaking my mind.
7. WHAT DO YOU MISS?
My grandmother, and the country she lives in.
8. WHAT IS YOUR MOST PRIZED POSSESSION(S)?
If you consider them possessions, then my cats. Otherwise, the silver bracelet that used to belong to my grandmother when she was a young girl.
9. HOW TALL ARE YOU?
5'2".
10. DO YOU GET CLAUSTROPHOBIC?
Not usually, but when I'm having a panic attack, the entire world feels too close and I start to feel like I can't breathe. I don't have panic attacks from claustrophobia, but rather I feel claustrophobic from panic attacks.
11. DO YOU GET SCARED IN THE DARK?
Yes. Not of the dark, though, but instead I fear what my imagination tells me could be in it.
12. THE LAST PERSON TO MAKE YOU CRY?
Rei.
13. WHAT'S YOUR WORST FEAR?
Zombies.
I'm perfectly serious when I say that. From everything I've read about phobias, I have one of zombies. I know they aren't real. I know they exist only in fiction. But seeing movies or TV shows with them makes me feel like a scream is caught in my throat and I can't unfreeze myself enough to let it out. I frequently have nightmares about them, ones that are bad enough that sometimes Rei has had to wake me up because I'm crying and whimpering. I've been unable to sleep more than once because of the mere thought that if zombies were real, I wouldn't be able to protect the things I love and wouldn't be able to get away. It's completely irrational. But the fear is there nevertheless.
14. WHAT KIND OF HAIR/EYE COLOR DO YOU LIKE ON THE PEOPLE YOU'RE ATTRACTED TO?
No particular fancy.
15. WHERE CAN YOU SEE YOURSELF PROPOSING?
This assumes I can see myself proposing. I doubt I'll ever get married, let alone summon the courage to be the one to ask about it.
16. COFFEE OR ENERGY DRINK?
I can't stand coffee, but I can't drink energy drinks either, even if I like them. I have an unfortunate little problem with my heart, in which it tends to, when stimulated by caffeine, randomly have moments of beating 150-200 beats per minute. It rarely lasts long, but it's terrifying to go through, so I avoid as many triggers as I can. If I'm feeling adventurous I might have a can of cola. But that's as far as I can take things.
17. FAVORITE PIZZA TOPPING?
Meat! I adore all-meat pizzas.
18. IF YOU COULD EAT ANYTHING RIGHT NOW, WHAT WOULD IT BE?
Well, now that you've got me thinking of pizza...
19. FAVORITE COLOR OF ALL TIME?
Black. And for those who insist that black is not a colour, I will follow that up by saying I'm also fond of silver and purple.
20. HAVE YOU EVER EATEN A GOLDFISH?
No.
21. WHAT WAS THE FIRST MEANINGFUL GIFT YOU'VE EVER RECEIVED?
The silver bracelet from my grandmother. She owned it when she was a girl, and it has her initials on it, surrounded by fines and flowers and birds, and I treasure it.
22. DO YOU HAVE A CRUSH?
See, I view crushes as something transient. They're warm fuzzy feelings that either dissipate fairly quickly, or evolve fairly quickly into something more stable. In that respect, I do not have a crush. But if by crush you mean do I have feelings toward somebody in a romantic sense, then yes I do.
23. ARE YOU DOUBLE JOINTED?
No.
24. FAVORITE CLOTHING BRAND?
I don't have one. The clothes I buy are usually second-hand, and I don't really care who makes them so long as they fit. If I didn't buy my clothes, then I made them, and so they don't have a brand.
25. WHO IS YOUR FAVORITE FEMALE/MALE CELEBRITY?
Female is Mia Krishner, whom I've had a star crush on since I was 10 years old. Male... Probably Johnny Depp.
26. DO YOU HAVE A PET RIGHT NOW?
Yes. Two cats (Nick and Jakob) and a rosy bourke (essentially a glorified budgie) named Albert. In years past, Rei and I have also raised 4 rats, Reiji, Naoya, Sniffles, and Silk.
27. WHAT KIND IS IT?
Oh... See above.
28. WOULD YOU FALL IN LOVE KNOWING THAT THE PERSON IS LEAVING?
This assumes that falling in love is a conscious decision. I don't believe it is. Thus my answer is yes, I could fall in love if that person was leaving. I would suffer pain for it, but that wouldn't stop me. If we only ever did the things guaranteed to not cause us pain, we'd be a sorry bunch of people.
29. ???
I assume somebody deleted this question beforetorachan got ahold of them, so I have no idea what it was. But for amusement's sake, I'll say that the answer is "yes."
30. SAY A NUMBER FROM ONE TO A HUNDRED?
42.
31. BLONDES OR BRUNETTES?
Does it matter?
32. FAVORITE QUOTE?
"This I think I have learned: where there is love, the form does not matter, and the gods are pleased. This I have observed: what occurs in nature, comes by the hand of nature, and if the gods did not approve, it would not be there." ~ Moondance k'Treva (Mercedes Lackey's Magic's Pawn)
33. FAVORITE PLACE?
England.
34. HAVE YOU BEEN OUT OF THE COUNTRY YOU WERE BORN IN?
This question originally asked if I'd ever been outside the USA. Given that I was born in England and now live in Canada and that it takes me more effort to get into America than out of it...
I dislike things that automatically assume everyone is American. Even though I know it isn't intended to insult, it's one of those thoughtless little things that can give the subtle impression that people in America are the only ones worth hearing about, or the only people worth being.
35. WEAKNESSES?
Orange chocolate. Or an iced chai from Java Moose.
36. ???
Ooh, another fill-in-the-blank question. This time, the answer will be "no."
37. FIRST JOB?
First official job? Working fast food. I didn't enjoy it. I didn't want the job. I didn't even apply for the job. But my father was badgering me to get a job, and my mother badgered her boss into hiring me, and one day I came home to find out that my first shift was the next day, after school. I was 15 years old and was too browbeaten by my parents to even think that I had the right to refuse.
Before that, I had unofficial babysitting jobs when my mother and her friends wanted to go somewhere to hang out but didn't want to bother with their children. I was never paid for my time, and once more was never given a choice in the matter.
Do I sound bitter about working? That would be because I am.
38. EVER DONE A PRANK CALL?
Only to a friend, and she pranked me right back so we could laugh about it. Having worked in call centres for years, I have a deep disgust of people who think it's funny to prank call businesses. They may have time to waste, but employees don't, and often they don't get paid enough to deal with adolescent inanity or skeezy perverts.
39. DO YOU THINK EVERYONE OUT THERE HAS A SOULMATE?
It's a romantic idea, and I'd like to believe it, but the thought also fills me with sadness. If it's true, then the chances of meeting that one person who's perfect for me is so slim as to be practically nonexistant, and therefore anybody I choose to be with is in all likelihood not the person I "should" be with. It's a notion meant to give people hope, but it just makes me feel miserable and unfulfilled.
40. WHAT WERE YOU DOING BEFORE YOU FILLED THIS OUT?
Watching old episodes of Sailor Moon.
41. HAVE YOU EVER HAD SURGERY?
No.
42. WHAT DO YOU GET COMPLIMENTED ABOUT MOST?
Being helpful, I suppose. I work hard to try and keep Rei from being in more pain than he needs to be in, and it's a compliment when he thanks me.
43. HAVE YOU EVER HAD BRACES?
No. I do, however, have very uneven teeth.
44. WHAT DO YOU WANT FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY?
A winning lottery ticket.
In all seriousness, though, I think I'd like a subscription to Renaissance magazine. I won't get it, I know, because my friends can't afford it and my parents don't bother to learn what I like or want when they can afford it, so I'll just try to save up money when I get a job again and buy a subscription for myself later.
45. HOW MANY KIDS DO YOU WANT AND THEIR NAMES?
None. And they do not have names. I don't like children. I don't get along with children. I can't relate to children. I am not emotionally capable of raising a child properly even if I did want any.
46. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?
No.
47. WHAT IS THE BIGGEST TURN OFF OF THE PEOPLE YOU'RE ATTRACTED TO?
Willful ignorance, spite, juvenile humour, cruelty.
48. WHAT IS ONE THING YOU LIKE(D) ABOUT HIGH SCHOOL?
Mr. Simpson. He was the teacher who, above all else, taught me how to enjoy learning. It's a shame this didn't happen until my final year of high school.
Not to toot my own horn, but I've always been smart. I skipped the first grade and stayed at the top of my class until junior high, but I didn't enjoy learning then so much as I just did the work and got good grades because I had no friends and thus no distractions. Junior high is when I entered French Immersion and was put in a class full of people who delighted in making fun of me. High school is where depression really hit, and I stopped enjoying anything.
But then I met Mr. Simpson, who was funny, witty, and did not suffer fools. He delighted in poking fun at ignorance and making examples of hypocrites and those who thought that acting moronic made them cool. He loved languages, he appreciated the fact that high school stdents were old enough to get the dirty jokes in Shakespeare's plays, and he loved a good debate with a student.
He was also the first to acknowledge that sometimes students had knowledge about things that he didn't. He made a point of knowing enough about the students in his class to be able to consult them about curiosities he had on certain subjects. Most teachers blustered through demonstrations of students outfoxing them and tried to regain their authority, but Mr. Simpson made us teachers too, even for just a moment, and I respected him for it.
He and I once spent most of the class talking about how perception shapes reality, and I used the example of a ball point pen to illustrate my point. I saw the ink in the pen as blue, so to me, it was blue. But if he saw it as green, then to him it was green. And when another student spoke up to say that no matter how we perceived it, it was still a blue pen, Mr. Simpson seemed to have a grand time trying to convince the student through logic that no, it was green. Even when it wasn't. The other studen couldn't back up their statement with anything other than, "no, it's blue," and I think that was what amused Mr. Simpson the most.
His classes were something to look forward to, and I miss them.
49. WHAT KIND OF SHAMPOO DO YOU USE?
Head & Shoulders, because it's what's in the bathroom right ow.
50. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
Yes, though I wish it was smaller.
51. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT?
Ham.
52. ANY BAD HABITS?
Sometimes I swear too much, more on habit than intent. I can be lax about certain aspects of hygience if I don't plan on going anywhere to impress somebody. (Example - Big deal if my hair's a little greasy if I'm not going outside that day.)
53. ARE YOU A JEALOUS PERSON?
Yes.
54. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON, WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU?
Probably not. I think I'd dislike me very much.
55. DO YOU AGREE WITH FRIENDS WITH BENEFITS?
Do I agree with it? That isn't for me to decide for anybody but myself, and given that I have no interest in sex, "friends with benefits" becomes "friends." If other people want to have sex with their friends, more power to them, and it's not for me to pass judgment on.
56. DO LOOKS MATTER?
Yes, and I hate it. I deal with it all the time now in job interviews. Despite the fact that my skills could be perfectly suited to the job I'm interviewing for, I have often wondered if the reason I don't get hired is because I didn't "take the time to make myself look pretty." By which I mean wearing makeup, spending half an hour styling my hair, and wearing clothing that shows off my body while still staying worksafe. My clothes are neat and presentable, but aen't form-fitting because I don't like such clothes. I don't wear makeup except on stage or when I'm in costume. My hair looks perfectly fine when just pulled back into a simple ponytail.
But to most people, that's not enough. I feel like I have to be fashion-conscious to get a job in a tiny cubicle now. I feel like people assume, "She's too much of a slacker to make herself look presentable," when by "presentable" they mean "attractive."
But then again, I've been accused of not bathing or washing my clothes before, all because I wore three separate pairs of pants to work in a row, all of which were made of the same material and looked fairly similar. My hygience was called into question because to people around me, my fashion sense was lacking. I didn't smell. My clothes weren't dirty. But looks mattered so much to those people that I got an official reprimand for it.
Yes, looks matter. And they shouldn't matter so very much.
57. HOW DO YOU RELEASE ANGER?
I get frustrated and cry, because I don't know other ways of releasing it other than long bouts of powerful singing, and I can't do that in an apartment with such thing walls.
58. WOULD YOU RATHER GAIN 58 POUNDS OR LOSE 58 POUNDS.
Given that I'm around 100 pounds overweight and have health problems for it, this is a no-brainer. I could lose 58 pounds and still be overweight, though I'd probably feel fantastic if I lost that much.
You know, assuming it wasn't some sort of instantaneous overnight kind of loss. Because that's just plain unhealthy!
59. WHAT'S YOUR MAIN GOAL IN LIFE?
To get or make a job doing what I love.
60. WHAT WAS YOUR FAVORITE TOY AS A CHILD?
I don't really think I had one. At least not one I can say remained my favourite for the entire span of my youth.
61. HOW MANY NUMBERS ARE IN YOUR CELL PHONE?
About 7 or so. Parents, friends, doctor, after-hours health clinic... I should probably delete my old work number, come to think of it.
62. WERE YOU A FAN OF BARNEY AS A LITTLE KID?
Meh, I watched some episodes, but I didn't really care for it one way or the other.
63. DO YOU USE SARCASM?
Not at all.
Oh, wait...
64. MASHED POTATOES OR MACARONI AND CHEESE?
Mashed potatoes, please.
65. WHAT DO YOU LOOK FOR IN A GUY/GIRL?
Tough question. I Similar interests, I guess, though I'm capable of liking a person without them liking knitting or anthropology, for example. It's easier for me to find what I don't like in a person. I have an easy test for it. Am I standing at a bus stop, reading a book? Do you come up to me and try to strike up a conversation? After I've answered your question and go back to my book, do you keep trying to talk to me?
Yes? Okay, I don't like that. I look for a lack of that.
66. WHAT ARE YOUR NICKNAMES?
Ria. Also, "Dude" to friends, but we all call each other that.
67. FAVORITE SUPER POWER?
Telepathy.
68. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE TV SHOW?
Buffy the Vampire Slayer has been on that list since it first aired, so I count that one as pretty high. X-Files, the Simpsons, House... There are a few, but I don't watch TV much.
69. WHAT'S THE BEST WAY TO DEAL WITH YOUR ENEMIES?
I don't know. I wish I could say I've never had enemies, but this would be a lie. I've met people who went out of their way to verbally and physically harass me for years, and all I could do was to try to avoid them where I could. I'm sure there's a better way, but I'm not brave enough to hit them. I may, on a good day, be brave enough to tell them where to go, but good days don't happen often.
70. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM FLAVOR?
I'd say it's orange-chocolate, but that flavour doesn't seem to exist yet. *shakes fist*
71. DO YOU HAVE ALL YOUR FINGERS AND TOES?
When last I checked...
72. DO YOU HAVE A COMPUTER IN YOUR ROOM?
No. I do, however, have a tower that serves as file storage in the back room, a functioning laptop which tends to stay in the living room, and a broken laptop which... is somewhere around here. I just don't keep it in the bedroom.
73. PLANS FOR TONIGHT?
Meet Rei for a turkey Caesar sandwich at Tim Horton's. Come home, possibly take a nap, then spend the evening reading or playing Strange Journey.
74. WHERE DO YOU WANT TO LIVE WHEN YOU ARE OLDER?
I don't know. Likely I'll still live here, though.
75. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS?
Doesn't matter to me.
76. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO?
The hum of my laptop fan.
77. LAST THING YOU DRANK?
Tea.
78. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?
Rei.
79. THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE IN PEOPLE YOU'RE ATTRACTED TO?
If I'm already attracted to somebody and they just show up, I notice that they're there. If I've never met them before, I'm not attracted to them, and so I just notice that they're there.
80. WHAT DO YOU LIKE TO DO IN YOUR SPARE TIME?
Read, play video games, knit, watch anime, write.
81. FAVORITE THING TO HATE?
Willful ignorance.
82. FAVORITE SEASON OF THE YEAR?
Spring.
83. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE TYPE OF CANDY?
Reese's Peanut Butter Cups, Terry's Chocolate Orange, Cow Tails, most kinds of mints.
84. HAVE YOU EVER REALLY AND TRULY HAD A BEST FRIEND?
Yes. Rei.
85. WHAT IS YOUR HAIR COLOR?
Brown, with a hint of red in it.
86. EYE COLOR?
Blue.
87. SHOE SIZE?
Not sure. I think it's a men's size 9 or 10 wide.
88. FAVORITE FAST FOOD PLACE?
Wild Duck Burger Subway, with Wendy's following close behind, immediately followed by the Osaka Grill. Though KFC has awesome chicken fries!
89. FAVORITE RESTAURANT?
Pizza Delight, or the Saint John Ale House. Sense of Tokyo's pretty good too, but I haven't eaten there in a long time.
90. DO YOU LIKE SUSHI?
It's okay. It's one of those "take it or leave it" foods to me.
91. WATCH TV TODAY?
Watched a few old episodes of Sailor Moon.
92. FAVORITE DAY OF THE YEAR?
Friday the 13th.
93. PLAY ANY MUSICAL INSTRUMENTS?
My voice, if that counts. I have a bodhran, a penny-whistle, and an ocarina that I need to practice more, though.
94. LIBERAL OR CONSERVATIVE?
I have liberal views, for the most part, though politically it doesn't much matter because I'm not a citizen and can't vote.
95. KISSES OR HUGS?
Depends on who's giving them. I'm more receptive to hugs, though, since very few people have license to kiss me.
96. RELATIONSHIPS OR ONE NIGHT STANDS?
I prefer relationships. Asexual here, so anyone looking for a one-night stand with me is going to find themselves playing Monopoly or something and wondering where their plans all went wrong.
97. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU BOUGHT?
A key lime soda.
98. WOULD YOU EVER BE A HOUSEPERSON?
Sure. I hate cleaning, but the rest is just fine, and I'd love to be able to be one since it would mean we'd have enough money that I wouldn't need to have a job.
99. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING?
See my book blog for details.
100. DESCRIBE YOUR LOVE LIFE:
Painful. Otherwise nonexistent.
1. ONE OF YOUR SCARS, HOW DID YOU GET IT?
When I was 12 I had a very nasty case of chicken pox that ended up scarring badly. As a result there are small round scars dotted here and there over my body, most of them still raised. The largest of them is on my chest, and the only reason it's smaller now is because it was deemed large enough in the beginning to receive steroid injections to shrink it.
2. WHAT IS ON THE WALLS IN YOUR ROOM?
Wallpaper that's half torn down and desperately needs the job finished. There are a few pictures around the apartment, but we never did get around to putting up posters or paintings.
3. DO YOU SNORE, GRIND YOUR TEETH, OR TALK IN YOUR SLEEP?
I snore, and usually quite badly. I usually only talk or cry out in my sleep when I'm having nightmares.
4. WHAT TYPE OF MUSIC DO YOU LISTEN TO?
It varies, and usually I prefer bands to specific genres. My playlist has everything from the Cruxshadows (gothrock) to Mediaeval Baebes (madrigals and other old-style songs) to Gackt (Gackt is a genre all on his own :p). I tend not to like country or rap, though.
5. WHAT TIME WERE YOU BORN?
Not completely sure, but I know it was some time in the middle of the night, around 2 AM or so.
6. WHAT DO YOU WANT MORE THAN ANYTHING RIGHT NOW?
To be unafraid of speaking my mind.
7. WHAT DO YOU MISS?
My grandmother, and the country she lives in.
8. WHAT IS YOUR MOST PRIZED POSSESSION(S)?
If you consider them possessions, then my cats. Otherwise, the silver bracelet that used to belong to my grandmother when she was a young girl.
9. HOW TALL ARE YOU?
5'2".
10. DO YOU GET CLAUSTROPHOBIC?
Not usually, but when I'm having a panic attack, the entire world feels too close and I start to feel like I can't breathe. I don't have panic attacks from claustrophobia, but rather I feel claustrophobic from panic attacks.
11. DO YOU GET SCARED IN THE DARK?
Yes. Not of the dark, though, but instead I fear what my imagination tells me could be in it.
12. THE LAST PERSON TO MAKE YOU CRY?
Rei.
13. WHAT'S YOUR WORST FEAR?
Zombies.
I'm perfectly serious when I say that. From everything I've read about phobias, I have one of zombies. I know they aren't real. I know they exist only in fiction. But seeing movies or TV shows with them makes me feel like a scream is caught in my throat and I can't unfreeze myself enough to let it out. I frequently have nightmares about them, ones that are bad enough that sometimes Rei has had to wake me up because I'm crying and whimpering. I've been unable to sleep more than once because of the mere thought that if zombies were real, I wouldn't be able to protect the things I love and wouldn't be able to get away. It's completely irrational. But the fear is there nevertheless.
14. WHAT KIND OF HAIR/EYE COLOR DO YOU LIKE ON THE PEOPLE YOU'RE ATTRACTED TO?
No particular fancy.
15. WHERE CAN YOU SEE YOURSELF PROPOSING?
This assumes I can see myself proposing. I doubt I'll ever get married, let alone summon the courage to be the one to ask about it.
16. COFFEE OR ENERGY DRINK?
I can't stand coffee, but I can't drink energy drinks either, even if I like them. I have an unfortunate little problem with my heart, in which it tends to, when stimulated by caffeine, randomly have moments of beating 150-200 beats per minute. It rarely lasts long, but it's terrifying to go through, so I avoid as many triggers as I can. If I'm feeling adventurous I might have a can of cola. But that's as far as I can take things.
17. FAVORITE PIZZA TOPPING?
Meat! I adore all-meat pizzas.
18. IF YOU COULD EAT ANYTHING RIGHT NOW, WHAT WOULD IT BE?
Well, now that you've got me thinking of pizza...
19. FAVORITE COLOR OF ALL TIME?
Black. And for those who insist that black is not a colour, I will follow that up by saying I'm also fond of silver and purple.
20. HAVE YOU EVER EATEN A GOLDFISH?
No.
21. WHAT WAS THE FIRST MEANINGFUL GIFT YOU'VE EVER RECEIVED?
The silver bracelet from my grandmother. She owned it when she was a girl, and it has her initials on it, surrounded by fines and flowers and birds, and I treasure it.
22. DO YOU HAVE A CRUSH?
See, I view crushes as something transient. They're warm fuzzy feelings that either dissipate fairly quickly, or evolve fairly quickly into something more stable. In that respect, I do not have a crush. But if by crush you mean do I have feelings toward somebody in a romantic sense, then yes I do.
23. ARE YOU DOUBLE JOINTED?
No.
24. FAVORITE CLOTHING BRAND?
I don't have one. The clothes I buy are usually second-hand, and I don't really care who makes them so long as they fit. If I didn't buy my clothes, then I made them, and so they don't have a brand.
25. WHO IS YOUR FAVORITE FEMALE/MALE CELEBRITY?
Female is Mia Krishner, whom I've had a star crush on since I was 10 years old. Male... Probably Johnny Depp.
26. DO YOU HAVE A PET RIGHT NOW?
Yes. Two cats (Nick and Jakob) and a rosy bourke (essentially a glorified budgie) named Albert. In years past, Rei and I have also raised 4 rats, Reiji, Naoya, Sniffles, and Silk.
27. WHAT KIND IS IT?
Oh... See above.
28. WOULD YOU FALL IN LOVE KNOWING THAT THE PERSON IS LEAVING?
This assumes that falling in love is a conscious decision. I don't believe it is. Thus my answer is yes, I could fall in love if that person was leaving. I would suffer pain for it, but that wouldn't stop me. If we only ever did the things guaranteed to not cause us pain, we'd be a sorry bunch of people.
29. ???
I assume somebody deleted this question before
torachan got ahold of them, so I have no idea what it was. But for amusement's sake, I'll say that the answer is "yes."30. SAY A NUMBER FROM ONE TO A HUNDRED?
42.
31. BLONDES OR BRUNETTES?
Does it matter?
32. FAVORITE QUOTE?
"This I think I have learned: where there is love, the form does not matter, and the gods are pleased. This I have observed: what occurs in nature, comes by the hand of nature, and if the gods did not approve, it would not be there." ~ Moondance k'Treva (Mercedes Lackey's Magic's Pawn)
33. FAVORITE PLACE?
England.
34. HAVE YOU BEEN OUT OF THE COUNTRY YOU WERE BORN IN?
This question originally asked if I'd ever been outside the USA. Given that I was born in England and now live in Canada and that it takes me more effort to get into America than out of it...
I dislike things that automatically assume everyone is American. Even though I know it isn't intended to insult, it's one of those thoughtless little things that can give the subtle impression that people in America are the only ones worth hearing about, or the only people worth being.
35. WEAKNESSES?
Orange chocolate. Or an iced chai from Java Moose.
36. ???
Ooh, another fill-in-the-blank question. This time, the answer will be "no."
37. FIRST JOB?
First official job? Working fast food. I didn't enjoy it. I didn't want the job. I didn't even apply for the job. But my father was badgering me to get a job, and my mother badgered her boss into hiring me, and one day I came home to find out that my first shift was the next day, after school. I was 15 years old and was too browbeaten by my parents to even think that I had the right to refuse.
Before that, I had unofficial babysitting jobs when my mother and her friends wanted to go somewhere to hang out but didn't want to bother with their children. I was never paid for my time, and once more was never given a choice in the matter.
Do I sound bitter about working? That would be because I am.
38. EVER DONE A PRANK CALL?
Only to a friend, and she pranked me right back so we could laugh about it. Having worked in call centres for years, I have a deep disgust of people who think it's funny to prank call businesses. They may have time to waste, but employees don't, and often they don't get paid enough to deal with adolescent inanity or skeezy perverts.
39. DO YOU THINK EVERYONE OUT THERE HAS A SOULMATE?
It's a romantic idea, and I'd like to believe it, but the thought also fills me with sadness. If it's true, then the chances of meeting that one person who's perfect for me is so slim as to be practically nonexistant, and therefore anybody I choose to be with is in all likelihood not the person I "should" be with. It's a notion meant to give people hope, but it just makes me feel miserable and unfulfilled.
40. WHAT WERE YOU DOING BEFORE YOU FILLED THIS OUT?
Watching old episodes of Sailor Moon.
41. HAVE YOU EVER HAD SURGERY?
No.
42. WHAT DO YOU GET COMPLIMENTED ABOUT MOST?
Being helpful, I suppose. I work hard to try and keep Rei from being in more pain than he needs to be in, and it's a compliment when he thanks me.
43. HAVE YOU EVER HAD BRACES?
No. I do, however, have very uneven teeth.
44. WHAT DO YOU WANT FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY?
A winning lottery ticket.
In all seriousness, though, I think I'd like a subscription to Renaissance magazine. I won't get it, I know, because my friends can't afford it and my parents don't bother to learn what I like or want when they can afford it, so I'll just try to save up money when I get a job again and buy a subscription for myself later.
45. HOW MANY KIDS DO YOU WANT AND THEIR NAMES?
None. And they do not have names. I don't like children. I don't get along with children. I can't relate to children. I am not emotionally capable of raising a child properly even if I did want any.
46. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?
No.
47. WHAT IS THE BIGGEST TURN OFF OF THE PEOPLE YOU'RE ATTRACTED TO?
Willful ignorance, spite, juvenile humour, cruelty.
48. WHAT IS ONE THING YOU LIKE(D) ABOUT HIGH SCHOOL?
Mr. Simpson. He was the teacher who, above all else, taught me how to enjoy learning. It's a shame this didn't happen until my final year of high school.
Not to toot my own horn, but I've always been smart. I skipped the first grade and stayed at the top of my class until junior high, but I didn't enjoy learning then so much as I just did the work and got good grades because I had no friends and thus no distractions. Junior high is when I entered French Immersion and was put in a class full of people who delighted in making fun of me. High school is where depression really hit, and I stopped enjoying anything.
But then I met Mr. Simpson, who was funny, witty, and did not suffer fools. He delighted in poking fun at ignorance and making examples of hypocrites and those who thought that acting moronic made them cool. He loved languages, he appreciated the fact that high school stdents were old enough to get the dirty jokes in Shakespeare's plays, and he loved a good debate with a student.
He was also the first to acknowledge that sometimes students had knowledge about things that he didn't. He made a point of knowing enough about the students in his class to be able to consult them about curiosities he had on certain subjects. Most teachers blustered through demonstrations of students outfoxing them and tried to regain their authority, but Mr. Simpson made us teachers too, even for just a moment, and I respected him for it.
He and I once spent most of the class talking about how perception shapes reality, and I used the example of a ball point pen to illustrate my point. I saw the ink in the pen as blue, so to me, it was blue. But if he saw it as green, then to him it was green. And when another student spoke up to say that no matter how we perceived it, it was still a blue pen, Mr. Simpson seemed to have a grand time trying to convince the student through logic that no, it was green. Even when it wasn't. The other studen couldn't back up their statement with anything other than, "no, it's blue," and I think that was what amused Mr. Simpson the most.
His classes were something to look forward to, and I miss them.
49. WHAT KIND OF SHAMPOO DO YOU USE?
Head & Shoulders, because it's what's in the bathroom right ow.
50. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
Yes, though I wish it was smaller.
51. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT?
Ham.
52. ANY BAD HABITS?
Sometimes I swear too much, more on habit than intent. I can be lax about certain aspects of hygience if I don't plan on going anywhere to impress somebody. (Example - Big deal if my hair's a little greasy if I'm not going outside that day.)
53. ARE YOU A JEALOUS PERSON?
Yes.
54. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON, WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU?
Probably not. I think I'd dislike me very much.
55. DO YOU AGREE WITH FRIENDS WITH BENEFITS?
Do I agree with it? That isn't for me to decide for anybody but myself, and given that I have no interest in sex, "friends with benefits" becomes "friends." If other people want to have sex with their friends, more power to them, and it's not for me to pass judgment on.
56. DO LOOKS MATTER?
Yes, and I hate it. I deal with it all the time now in job interviews. Despite the fact that my skills could be perfectly suited to the job I'm interviewing for, I have often wondered if the reason I don't get hired is because I didn't "take the time to make myself look pretty." By which I mean wearing makeup, spending half an hour styling my hair, and wearing clothing that shows off my body while still staying worksafe. My clothes are neat and presentable, but aen't form-fitting because I don't like such clothes. I don't wear makeup except on stage or when I'm in costume. My hair looks perfectly fine when just pulled back into a simple ponytail.
But to most people, that's not enough. I feel like I have to be fashion-conscious to get a job in a tiny cubicle now. I feel like people assume, "She's too much of a slacker to make herself look presentable," when by "presentable" they mean "attractive."
But then again, I've been accused of not bathing or washing my clothes before, all because I wore three separate pairs of pants to work in a row, all of which were made of the same material and looked fairly similar. My hygience was called into question because to people around me, my fashion sense was lacking. I didn't smell. My clothes weren't dirty. But looks mattered so much to those people that I got an official reprimand for it.
Yes, looks matter. And they shouldn't matter so very much.
57. HOW DO YOU RELEASE ANGER?
I get frustrated and cry, because I don't know other ways of releasing it other than long bouts of powerful singing, and I can't do that in an apartment with such thing walls.
58. WOULD YOU RATHER GAIN 58 POUNDS OR LOSE 58 POUNDS.
Given that I'm around 100 pounds overweight and have health problems for it, this is a no-brainer. I could lose 58 pounds and still be overweight, though I'd probably feel fantastic if I lost that much.
You know, assuming it wasn't some sort of instantaneous overnight kind of loss. Because that's just plain unhealthy!
59. WHAT'S YOUR MAIN GOAL IN LIFE?
To get or make a job doing what I love.
60. WHAT WAS YOUR FAVORITE TOY AS A CHILD?
I don't really think I had one. At least not one I can say remained my favourite for the entire span of my youth.
61. HOW MANY NUMBERS ARE IN YOUR CELL PHONE?
About 7 or so. Parents, friends, doctor, after-hours health clinic... I should probably delete my old work number, come to think of it.
62. WERE YOU A FAN OF BARNEY AS A LITTLE KID?
Meh, I watched some episodes, but I didn't really care for it one way or the other.
63. DO YOU USE SARCASM?
Not at all.
Oh, wait...
64. MASHED POTATOES OR MACARONI AND CHEESE?
Mashed potatoes, please.
65. WHAT DO YOU LOOK FOR IN A GUY/GIRL?
Tough question. I Similar interests, I guess, though I'm capable of liking a person without them liking knitting or anthropology, for example. It's easier for me to find what I don't like in a person. I have an easy test for it. Am I standing at a bus stop, reading a book? Do you come up to me and try to strike up a conversation? After I've answered your question and go back to my book, do you keep trying to talk to me?
Yes? Okay, I don't like that. I look for a lack of that.
66. WHAT ARE YOUR NICKNAMES?
Ria. Also, "Dude" to friends, but we all call each other that.
67. FAVORITE SUPER POWER?
Telepathy.
68. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE TV SHOW?
Buffy the Vampire Slayer has been on that list since it first aired, so I count that one as pretty high. X-Files, the Simpsons, House... There are a few, but I don't watch TV much.
69. WHAT'S THE BEST WAY TO DEAL WITH YOUR ENEMIES?
I don't know. I wish I could say I've never had enemies, but this would be a lie. I've met people who went out of their way to verbally and physically harass me for years, and all I could do was to try to avoid them where I could. I'm sure there's a better way, but I'm not brave enough to hit them. I may, on a good day, be brave enough to tell them where to go, but good days don't happen often.
70. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM FLAVOR?
I'd say it's orange-chocolate, but that flavour doesn't seem to exist yet. *shakes fist*
71. DO YOU HAVE ALL YOUR FINGERS AND TOES?
When last I checked...
72. DO YOU HAVE A COMPUTER IN YOUR ROOM?
No. I do, however, have a tower that serves as file storage in the back room, a functioning laptop which tends to stay in the living room, and a broken laptop which... is somewhere around here. I just don't keep it in the bedroom.
73. PLANS FOR TONIGHT?
Meet Rei for a turkey Caesar sandwich at Tim Horton's. Come home, possibly take a nap, then spend the evening reading or playing Strange Journey.
74. WHERE DO YOU WANT TO LIVE WHEN YOU ARE OLDER?
I don't know. Likely I'll still live here, though.
75. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS?
Doesn't matter to me.
76. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO?
The hum of my laptop fan.
77. LAST THING YOU DRANK?
Tea.
78. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?
Rei.
79. THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE IN PEOPLE YOU'RE ATTRACTED TO?
If I'm already attracted to somebody and they just show up, I notice that they're there. If I've never met them before, I'm not attracted to them, and so I just notice that they're there.
80. WHAT DO YOU LIKE TO DO IN YOUR SPARE TIME?
Read, play video games, knit, watch anime, write.
81. FAVORITE THING TO HATE?
Willful ignorance.
82. FAVORITE SEASON OF THE YEAR?
Spring.
83. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE TYPE OF CANDY?
Reese's Peanut Butter Cups, Terry's Chocolate Orange, Cow Tails, most kinds of mints.
84. HAVE YOU EVER REALLY AND TRULY HAD A BEST FRIEND?
Yes. Rei.
85. WHAT IS YOUR HAIR COLOR?
Brown, with a hint of red in it.
86. EYE COLOR?
Blue.
87. SHOE SIZE?
Not sure. I think it's a men's size 9 or 10 wide.
88. FAVORITE FAST FOOD PLACE?
89. FAVORITE RESTAURANT?
Pizza Delight, or the Saint John Ale House. Sense of Tokyo's pretty good too, but I haven't eaten there in a long time.
90. DO YOU LIKE SUSHI?
It's okay. It's one of those "take it or leave it" foods to me.
91. WATCH TV TODAY?
Watched a few old episodes of Sailor Moon.
92. FAVORITE DAY OF THE YEAR?
Friday the 13th.
93. PLAY ANY MUSICAL INSTRUMENTS?
My voice, if that counts. I have a bodhran, a penny-whistle, and an ocarina that I need to practice more, though.
94. LIBERAL OR CONSERVATIVE?
I have liberal views, for the most part, though politically it doesn't much matter because I'm not a citizen and can't vote.
95. KISSES OR HUGS?
Depends on who's giving them. I'm more receptive to hugs, though, since very few people have license to kiss me.
96. RELATIONSHIPS OR ONE NIGHT STANDS?
I prefer relationships. Asexual here, so anyone looking for a one-night stand with me is going to find themselves playing Monopoly or something and wondering where their plans all went wrong.
97. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU BOUGHT?
A key lime soda.
98. WOULD YOU EVER BE A HOUSEPERSON?
Sure. I hate cleaning, but the rest is just fine, and I'd love to be able to be one since it would mean we'd have enough money that I wouldn't need to have a job.
99. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING?
See my book blog for details.
100. DESCRIBE YOUR LOVE LIFE:
Painful. Otherwise nonexistent.
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Date: 2010-05-14 02:21 am (UTC)THIS. So much this.