Disappointment
Mar. 30th, 2010 12:52 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
sarasvatiI got my PFO letter from the company I had applied to for a job. With a simple letter, three lines long, went the hopes of getting a new apartment and going back to school. I know, logically, that this wasn't my final chance at doing such things, but I did have such hopes pinned on it. Finding out it won't happen has ruined my mood.
What is it that makes me so unemployable lately? According to every guide I've read, I used to do everything wrong and yet get a job anyway. Now I'm doing things the so-called right way and no company will hire me. It makes me wonder is companies actually was a depressed employee with little to no self-esteem, instead of an intelligent employee who seeks improvement and who can, at the very least, fake a positive attitude even when they don't feel it. Would I be better off going to interviews and acting like I don't deserve the job and that I'm profoundly uncomfortable, instead of going in appearing confident and smiling and with the ability to make small talk even when I hate it?
I wish I could just get a job transcribing audio and video, or doing copyedit work. More fields where you have to already have experience before somebody will give you a job to give you experience, though.
I'm going to try to cheer myself up with anime and leftover garlic bread. I won't get a job doing that, but it might at least be able to raise my mood a bit.
What is it that makes me so unemployable lately? According to every guide I've read, I used to do everything wrong and yet get a job anyway. Now I'm doing things the so-called right way and no company will hire me. It makes me wonder is companies actually was a depressed employee with little to no self-esteem, instead of an intelligent employee who seeks improvement and who can, at the very least, fake a positive attitude even when they don't feel it. Would I be better off going to interviews and acting like I don't deserve the job and that I'm profoundly uncomfortable, instead of going in appearing confident and smiling and with the ability to make small talk even when I hate it?
I wish I could just get a job transcribing audio and video, or doing copyedit work. More fields where you have to already have experience before somebody will give you a job to give you experience, though.
I'm going to try to cheer myself up with anime and leftover garlic bread. I won't get a job doing that, but it might at least be able to raise my mood a bit.