A case of bad timing
Sep. 6th, 2010 10:23 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
sarasvatiWhy does creativity always have to strike at the most inopportune moments? Right now, I'm about half an hour from going to bed for the night, and I have a sudden and almost overwhelming urge to have a massive writing session. Earlier, I also randomly and suddenly wanted a set of paints so that I could do some art that was sitting in the back of my head.
I miss the days when I could pull all-nighters in order to write or draw or just play video games. But those days are gone. Even if Rei didn't have to keep a very regular schedule in order to avoid being in crippling pain, I no longer have the energy to keep going the way I used to. A regular schedule has been pretty good for me thus far, too, and I have to be careful enough with my health in order to avoid pain and bad lung days and the like.
But I want to write so very badly.
I can probably take a good chunk of tomorrow to write, really. I'm already ahead when it comes to this month's reading, so I'm not too worried about losing any reading time. But I have no idea if the urge will still be there when I wake up tomorrow morning.
Things like this are one of the things I miss the most about my old overnight job. Except for the time toward the end, there was very little work to actually be done. Being there to take a few calls, cleaning up a little, and the rest of the night usually consisted of me reading or writing or playing video games, while my iPod and speakers kept the place from being creepily quiet. I'd often do exercises, too. (I was alone, so why not?) But if, at 3 in the morning, I was struck with an idea that begged to be written, I could just start writing it. I could write for hours with very few interruptions, I could get a lot accomplished, and I could be paid well above minimum wage for doing so. That's why I'd love to have a quiet overnight job again.
Or perhaps a winning lottery ticket, so that I can stay at home and not have to worry about work at all, and Rei can quit and we can live to the schedules our bodies dictate is best for us instead of trying to mold ourselves to a conventional schedule that aids health but saps creativity. (We're both more creative and active at night. Typical artists, we are.) Honestly, we could both be on regular night schedules and likely at the peak of our creativity and health, given the chance.
But since starting to write now and having to stop soon would just frustrate me, I'll read until I go to bed and just start writing in the morning. No harm in that, and besides, I'm still really enjoying the book I'm reading!
I miss the days when I could pull all-nighters in order to write or draw or just play video games. But those days are gone. Even if Rei didn't have to keep a very regular schedule in order to avoid being in crippling pain, I no longer have the energy to keep going the way I used to. A regular schedule has been pretty good for me thus far, too, and I have to be careful enough with my health in order to avoid pain and bad lung days and the like.
But I want to write so very badly.
I can probably take a good chunk of tomorrow to write, really. I'm already ahead when it comes to this month's reading, so I'm not too worried about losing any reading time. But I have no idea if the urge will still be there when I wake up tomorrow morning.
Things like this are one of the things I miss the most about my old overnight job. Except for the time toward the end, there was very little work to actually be done. Being there to take a few calls, cleaning up a little, and the rest of the night usually consisted of me reading or writing or playing video games, while my iPod and speakers kept the place from being creepily quiet. I'd often do exercises, too. (I was alone, so why not?) But if, at 3 in the morning, I was struck with an idea that begged to be written, I could just start writing it. I could write for hours with very few interruptions, I could get a lot accomplished, and I could be paid well above minimum wage for doing so. That's why I'd love to have a quiet overnight job again.
Or perhaps a winning lottery ticket, so that I can stay at home and not have to worry about work at all, and Rei can quit and we can live to the schedules our bodies dictate is best for us instead of trying to mold ourselves to a conventional schedule that aids health but saps creativity. (We're both more creative and active at night. Typical artists, we are.) Honestly, we could both be on regular night schedules and likely at the peak of our creativity and health, given the chance.
But since starting to write now and having to stop soon would just frustrate me, I'll read until I go to bed and just start writing in the morning. No harm in that, and besides, I'm still really enjoying the book I'm reading!