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Staying up waaaay too late tonight.
Sep. 26th, 2010 10:42 pmI'm rather proud of myself at the moment. I walked about six miles today, which is the most I've done in a long time. Of course, it was helped along by the fact that my anxiety was running high and I needed some way to burn off that extra energy without freaking out. A long walk was the best way to do that, and I kept taking lots of twists and turns to make the walk just that little bit longer. In the end, I'd walked pretty far and had worn myself out enough to be able to come home without much worry.
Shame that was the most productive thing I did all day. I kept feeling like I ought to be doing something, only there was nothing to really do, and I'm better that didn't help the feeling of anxiety any.
Hopefully tomorrow will be better. I've got some cleaning to do, and I want to make turkey sausage before I forget again and end up putting it off for another day. If I can manage to do just those two things, I'll feel like I accomplished something.
I miss the days where I had hobby websites and whatnot to keep me busy. If I felt bored and wanted to be productive, I'd go edit the layout of the website a little, or add some small bit of new content. It was a project, made me feel like I was doing something worthwhile even when I knew that I was probably the only person to visit that website, and was fun. Or the Pokemon game hacks I used to do.
I suppose I could always get back to those hacks. I lost all the files, of course, when I had to install Windows 7, but I could always get them back and start afresh. I had such plans for those game hacks. I had, in my mind, a hack which would have two different versions needed to "catch 'em all" (I can't believe I just said that), and one in which I created my own batch of Pokemon and essentially made an original game while sticking to the franchise, so to speak. I never had the chance to get very far, but I still enjoyed working on the project. Especially working with maps. I loved changing all the map data.
I should also get my hands on that visual novel creator and work on the ideas I had for those, too. The downside to that is that visual novels involve, well, a lot of visuals, and my art skills aren't quite up to par. And Rei doesn't have a lot of time or energy to commit to larger projects like that at the moment.
No harm in writing the text for the novel, though, and waiting for Rei to feel better if he wants to do the art.
Shame that was the most productive thing I did all day. I kept feeling like I ought to be doing something, only there was nothing to really do, and I'm better that didn't help the feeling of anxiety any.
Hopefully tomorrow will be better. I've got some cleaning to do, and I want to make turkey sausage before I forget again and end up putting it off for another day. If I can manage to do just those two things, I'll feel like I accomplished something.
I miss the days where I had hobby websites and whatnot to keep me busy. If I felt bored and wanted to be productive, I'd go edit the layout of the website a little, or add some small bit of new content. It was a project, made me feel like I was doing something worthwhile even when I knew that I was probably the only person to visit that website, and was fun. Or the Pokemon game hacks I used to do.
I suppose I could always get back to those hacks. I lost all the files, of course, when I had to install Windows 7, but I could always get them back and start afresh. I had such plans for those game hacks. I had, in my mind, a hack which would have two different versions needed to "catch 'em all" (I can't believe I just said that), and one in which I created my own batch of Pokemon and essentially made an original game while sticking to the franchise, so to speak. I never had the chance to get very far, but I still enjoyed working on the project. Especially working with maps. I loved changing all the map data.
I should also get my hands on that visual novel creator and work on the ideas I had for those, too. The downside to that is that visual novels involve, well, a lot of visuals, and my art skills aren't quite up to par. And Rei doesn't have a lot of time or energy to commit to larger projects like that at the moment.
No harm in writing the text for the novel, though, and waiting for Rei to feel better if he wants to do the art.